I chose to close the blinds lock the doors crawl deep under the covers and cry my heart out, i listen to sad songs in the car and devote alot of time to my late husband and his memories.
Occasionally.
Most of the time i talk to a close friend on te phone, arrange playdates, and now finally have returned to work. My life right now is on full focus on me (and of course my son) im embracing who i was who I am and who i want to be in the future. What can i do to reach these goals and why i want these things for me and my son. When i have a hot bath thats for me, when i go to work and work hard to earn a paycheck thats for us- all 3 of us. Just because Brads not here anymore doesnt mean that most things i do are for him as well. I would like him to be proud of his family. I knew when he was still here he was so proud of us, I wouldnt want that to change.
A friend of mine recently found herself a single mother with two kids. True her situations alot different from mine as her kids will still see their father, hes still here and she will get a "Break" from time to time, but she is mourning the loss of their love. In this regard I am lucky. I know Brad loved me very much and that will never change.
So i reminded her to embrace herself.
Stand up for yourself no one else is looking out #1 for you except you!
Inspiration.
To other new single parents grab a new hobby that makes you happy, maybe even turn it into a business, but take the time to find your inspiration.
The inspiration that encourages you to put one foot in front of the other.
My story sucks, my storys pretty worst case scenario, but its the worst thing i have ever gone through and I pray those i love wont have to go through what i continue to endure day after day, but really its no worse than any other single parents story- if thats the worst thing they have experienced they too had to learn to put one foot in front of the other and as Nike so nicely put it "just do it"
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